What is going fellow Christians? I am losing faith and becoming depressed by the day?

Hello John I have read many of your words of dissatisfaction, I don't know if all this satisfaction is with God or the church, well I can say I have been an Christian for fifty five years, and yes I have found disatisfaction in this life also, but with God no, and I do not accept it is with God, sure I believe it may be with a church or the church structure, mostly because we see the world either progress or changes being made, but to the embly we blong there is no update, and, or changes, but with us we want more this I understand, but not all the times we can make these changes, though God does allow for these changes and within the present structure people are afraid to cause the needed structural changes to take place, but if one were in God they are brought the joy, which cannot be seen, and our joy remains even in the midst of the turmoil around us,. I am not here to suggest what changes needed to be made for you to know of these changes, but I pray God allows them to be revealed to you that you may be more receptive to them, and your dismay with the life changes. May od Bless and keep you alway